I remember four years ago, not being able to sleep before I came to Fordham for the first time. Now, as many of my lasts at Fordham are approaching, I am finding that seem uneasy stomach I had as an 18 year old, those same sleepless nights, and quite frankly, a lot of sadness. It is important for me to remember though, and all of you, that this is not the end. Hey, I am not practicing what I am preaching, but boy do I wish I could. My friends are mostly staying in New York. I will likely see them often. I will come back and visit Fordham often. It’s not that that I am sad about. It’s the change. It’s that my routine is being broken. So, yes, I will just need to find a new routine, but that’s not the point. What will be my new Mugz’s? Who’s going to be my new work friends? Worse! What if I don’t like any of them? OY. I can’t think about this anymore. So for the time being, I am going to enjoy my last few days of being stupid, being silly, and sharing laughs.
Spring has sprung! The days filled with music, brews, friends, and the quad are now almost a regular thing. Leaving behind the cold tall boy to make it to class seems like a feat. But with all the sunny days comes the realization that graduation is right around the corner and time is coming to an end. It’s sad to think about, and as much as I have tried to avoid the thought and forget about it, the reality is that it is here. Yesterday I sat on Eddie’s watching my friends toss a rugby ball, have a catch with the football, the girls and I laying around and observing how “college” we really were being and I got sad. Sad that I would be leaving behind this chapter yet excited to start a new one. It made me start to think, what do I really want out of these next few weeks? I am going to search for the answer for that in the next few days, and I will get back to you soon….
drinks and dreams baby, drinks and dreams
So, my friends, it is that time of year again when spring-cleaning goes into full effect. However, this year is different cause I am just not just cleaning out my closet, but also my friends. With 46 days left until graduation I am so far over the petty bullshit that I thought I left behind in high-school, but clearly I haven’t four years later. I am equally at fault, but why, WHY, is college just a bigger version of high school? The rumors, the drama, the gossip, the cliques, and don’t get me wrong, I am smack dab in the middle of it all. But imagine this: we have grown up issues now. The problems don’t start because Kelly bought the same jean skirt as Rebecca at Nordstrom. The problems now start because Catherine hooked up with Dana’s boyfriend. So really, when is this going to end? I am alone on this or do other groups of girls have the same problems? Maybe it’s just my dysfunctional friends who I love to death, or love to hate, but I am trying to get a grasp on all this. So if you have any ideas, please share.